I'm sorry I haven't posted for a while, even though I'm
currently not working, I seem to have been caught up in so much stuff. It's
like I have so much going on in my head and a few days ago I just had to stop, think
and reflect...
I'm always thinking about what I want. For example I'm constantly thinking about losing
my pregnancy weight, my wrinkles, buying
a new phone...the list is just endless.
When did I turn into such a materialistic, vein cow? I know this has
been the case for a long time, even with my career I was super competitive, I
was never happy, I always wanted more. The thing is, I have rarely met someone that
is happy with what they have or how they look...actually I have never met
someone that is grateful for what they have.
I'm in my 30's and I still can't accept that I don't have a wash board
stomach! I look in the mirror and I don't see what my mum, husband and friends see, I see
faults and count my grey hairs ( I have 6).
The media is constantly going on about how teenagers have an
unhealthy attitude about themselves and their image. Actually I have met women and men (in their
20s, 30s, 40s and even in their 60s) that still have an unhealthy attitude
about their image..when does it end?
Today I dropped off my little boy at his Tennis club and the
lady (K) that lived next door said hello
to me. She was in her 80s, she was
cheerful and sweet. I decided to talk to
her for a bit. I found out that her
husband had passed away six weeks ago. She had three boys that she and her
husband had raised in their family home.
Now her husband was gone, her boys had left home and she was living
alone in her big five bedroom house and her house was going up for sale. She
was so accepting but for that moment I was petrified. All the things I take for granted my parents,
my husband, my children , family friends..one day I'm going to wake up and I
may also be in the same situation as K.
The problem is I don't think I'd be as brave or as cheerful as K. I'd have regrets about the years of my life
that I have wasted beating myself up about the slice of cake I ate or my
stretch marks.
Life is short so don't be harsh on yourself, you may be
young today but before you know it you will be an old person. Do you want to be
that old person that is sad and bitter or do you want to be like K? Thank you K, I hope that one day I'm as accepting
as you are and have wonderful memories
like you. Be grateful for what you have,
some people act like they have a perfect life but in reality no one does. Stop
comparing yourself, enjoy being you and create more fabulous memories, take on
challenges and begin new adventures. Do nice things for other people and be
positive about all the good things in your life. All easier said than done but try.
Love,
Minoushe xx
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